Goodbye Cali

Well tomorrow is my last day in California. I'm totally freaking out! My house items, basically everything i own is a week out and on its way to VA. My car left on a truck, on its journey Sunday. All that's left is me, my girls and 2 suitcases. To know that i will not potentially never live in California again, is scary. 11 hr flight is next. who knows after that.

7 years ago i met a family. a big family. a terrific, awesome family. who welcomed  with loving arms to a broken girl struggling to find love for herself. Not ever believing she could love others too.  i have never felt so comfortable with a group of people. not even my own family. not even my own mother. for 7 years I have called  a women my mom. my friend. and it was so hard to say goodbye to her. way harder then i have ever thought it would be. Sandra is this women. she has made such an impact in my life. and i will always love her and 3800 miles away ill still need her. I will need these people forever. and i hope they stay in my life.

I don't have many Tahoe friends. so saying goodbye is a little easy there. I don't like the snow, the construction, the tourists, the ski bums, the casinos, the gambling. or the cold lake. Yet i will miss Tahoe sooo much. I have been so lucky to live in such a beautiful place. i met my husband at this romantic place. I married my best friend at this place. I gave birth to 2 beautiful girls at this place. i will never forget this place.

As for Virgina, I admit i have absolutely no idea what the heck I'm doing. I'm going day by day. All i know is, ill be with my husband, at least close. And I'm in a whole new crazy adventure. i don't know where ill be 6 months from now. and its scary. but this is it. this is my life. i will embrace it.