Distance + Alone = Sad

So the last few days have been harder than Greg being at BCT. I'm not sure why. but its more hurtful knowing i could be there but cant. knowing he's able to hang out, chill. and i am so far away. raising the girls alone is driving me nuts. I don't want to be a single mom and yet for the last 3 1/2 months i have been. Some where down this road its suppose to get easier, get more stable and normal. When? I love my family and its hurting so have such separate lives so far apart. I just cant wait to have a home again. together......